Tie Your your laces and start walking

Been a while since i wrote anything but i guess there is no better day but today right... over tthis past year i can't say there was't a moment where i did't feel like I wasn't being tested. I've asked my self so many times am I just doing the motions am I really serving my purpose am I taking control of my life and if I am is it showing purpose. Like I said this last year had to have been one of the toughest years of my life. Having to walk every where you have nothing but time to think there would be moments where I just felt my shoe laces were undone and I was emotionally tripping over myself. At times I'd start to question where something was leading want many times nowhere. But in the end I had to make a choice, am I going to keep tripping up on what life can be or am I going to make the choice to show life what I can be. Wake up with purpose my friends you won't regret it

Is this just another day?

The Last Thursday in November marks a day that is celebrated and proclaimed as "Thanksgiving." and yet every year we hear the same sappy thing said..."billy what are you thankful for" "well aunt Jane I'm thankful many things but I'm thankful for family most of all" that is the most common one now trust me I'm not the first to say that is not a great response but...should we have to dedicate a day to something that should honestly just be present in...our life... thankfulness i feel it should be something of our nature..so many times it takes a holiday for us to wake up and see what other people do for us, or just to do good or nice things unto others. I Challenge you not only to tell your fellow family members or even just friends or even your self....what am i thankful and how am i going to strive to make them feel the thanks that they deserve. Don't let it be just another day make every day a day of thanksgiving.

Where to Captain?

Have you ever just wanted to say....OK now what, or now where do i go. That has been a constant quest in my life. There were times where the road has got a bit bumpy, and I really didn't know What to do, Where to go, Who to talk to. I have always made it a mission to get approval from other people of who i am as a person rather than being happy with who i am. I guess you can say making time for friends and the things that were going on in their life was easier than making time for myself and actually enjoying where I was. I've been searching for the man that god wants me to be and more or less where he wants me to go...this sometimes seems almost impossible....for many months i was waiting for god to help me move and decide whats best for my life, but i think he's wanting me to step out of my comfort zone and...honestly just move...i feel like honestly God is trying to pushing me to just do something and know that he's right there beside me... I feel he wants me to learn sometimes in ways that will help me grow so if that by doing something that at the time seems impossible or maybe even improbable...to honestly just put trust and faith not only in myself but in Him and just do it.....it says in Matthew 17:20 "Because you have little faith," he said. "I assure that if you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you could say to this mountain, 'Go from here to there,' and it will go. There will be nothing that you can't do."

So i guess what I'm trying to say, in tough times i feel like it is hard and some time tiring to stop and really think about things like "am i trusting someone that has my best interests in mind, or am i doing what i want to do." Our agenda sometimes over powers what God is puts in our heart. I've personally Caught my self sometimes just taking a step back and saying "Where To Captain?"

Truths Part I

Whats better than telling the truth not a whole lot to be honest..i mean I'm not going to lie because that would be going against what i just said...i have lied unfortunately my fair share in my life so far not only to other people but mostly it seems to myself. i used to walk around carrying my head high even though in all honestly i wasn't happy. I fooled myself into believing that by not sharing with people how i truly was, that i wasn't hurting anyone, but in reality i was I was not only hurting myself I was hurting everyone that cared about me. Looking back i have hurt so many people that i deeply cared about and the time has come to own up to it. Even though probably they will never read this i want to announce publicly that..yes i have cheated on previous girlfriends both to be exact...not proud of this. I have also said hateful things about other people behind their back not meaning to hurt anyone but in the process...hurting some one. Wronging people like this isn't worth it....nor is it fair to your self or them.Trust is something that it seems our world struggles with and when it bulls down to it and when you show a lack of trust or integrity it's hard for people to believe anything you say. Making steps to change is hard, but being open and accepting advice from people that are close to you...i believe will help me become the person that god has sent me here to be. I hope that anyone that reads this see's and remembers that yes we are forgiven from god and his mercy but that everyday we should try harder and harder to be a better people and to show love to people that we couldn't show with out him!

Making the next step

Well wowie zowie it's been a while since i blogged! lately I've been working my hardest on "making the next step" along with come lately it seem like stress. it seems like I'm second guessing my self in every thing i do not only about who i want to be but also who i am becoming. Yesterday was Easter Sunday the Day that the my faith says that god rose from the dead. Now this is all good and what not but again how am i putting this into action. i can walk day in and day out talking about how my life is changed because I've accepted Christ but unless I'm putting my words to the test and i am showing gods love though my actions these words are just dead...and as we know dead things well there just dead. and as we know Christianity is a living faith and that you not only have to walk daily in faith but you have to act our actions have and will always speak louder than words so i challenge you lend out hand and show how much you love god by loving some one else in maybe in a way your uncomfortable with :)

Who Are You...Is that honestly you?

So yes...it is yet another late night adventure in my mind and honestly, I'm going to let my mind take a venture on the this one. Honesty it's something were taught from a young age. I was taught that honesty is a key, with friendships, family, and deeper relationships that could lead up to a girlfriend and marriage. When someone can honestly look at you and tell you i honestly don't like your attitude toward (____) fill in the blank that person is..."being real." This Idea or thought of honesty and as many people put it "brutal honesty", which to mean means you say what you know to be the truth even it could in turn hurt another feelings. Now at the moment i feel like I'm giving a lecture i want to get away from that and get i guess deeper. I just watched a movie called "Catfish." (Warning!!! if you haven't seen this movie and want to stop reading now!!! come back and read later) I'll start of saying the Internet is a a portal for many things. To me it seems that the Internet can be a way to promote a business start a business or even just talk about business this is more of the E commerce side. Then you get into the informative side where i see that you can go from website to website trying to find sorurcable information that can be used to not only gain knowledge but to inform others about a topic. there are more but i really guess i wanted to hit 3 of them the last one is the biggest one it's social networking or even online dating. The Internet is an escape from reality...the space that takes up cyber spaces allows billions of people let them be whoever there want to be. which for many can be a fun prank to play on another friend but...when the joke makes up your life and portrays a part of you that has remained hidden..to me it allows you to fall into this trap of being some one that your not. Whats even worse is people have made it more of a habit of lying to people too, to make it more convient to better their needs and I'm making a challenge to my self and all you that read this start off your day with a fresh cup of Honesty and try as hard as possible to be yourself don't let anyone fool you into believing that to do what you want you must change who you are!! :)

You can bet on it

When you and your best friend get into a disagreement about something silly or maybe even something that you are "sure" about, many times you say "I'll bet you." i get this small feeling that this has been going longer than we can imagine. in reality unless we see it for our selves it might not be a sure thing. I'm stopping and thinking right now what makes us think that some thing is a sure thing. Physical proof? and emotional state where we feel right? When it comes to belief's many of our day to day beliefs or practices are from our home life. Now having a belief is all fine and dandy but when we believe in something don't we try to support it. For me this has been a life time struggle. not necessarily the believing part but the acting. When it comes to love, i show it with open arms do i always do it at the right time...no i don't. i tell people this story and it makes them giggle....but when i was little kid if a kid fell of the monkey bars..i was the first to help him up. I've always had a heart for people both of my parents have told me this. I try to hold my friends to a high standard about being there for me not making it a one way street and it really bothers me that i can honestly say i have very few honest friends and friends that are there. but again..I'm not always there either so i again condemn myself. My relationship with god has truly had it's moments not ones where i stop believing but where i might not necessarily be where i could be. The one thing i can bet on is that he'll always be there for me...never forsake me... and knows what i need in life to keep going. so i guess what I'm challenging you or asking you to even stop and think about it for one second. What are thing things that you truly bet on? i know it's going to be different for every one. :)